Psa. 73:25 Whom have I in heaven but You?
And besides You, I desire nothing on earth.
Just sitting on my back porch alone under an outdoor heater, listening to worship music. Actually I’m not alone at all because His Presence fills the space I’m in, and the joy of His presence always makes me feel so alive and makes every moment seem so relevant. I’m grateful at times like this that what I do doesn’t define me, but who I am to Him, and who He is to me defines meaning, purpose, and happiness to me. The older I’ve gotten the more Song of Solomon means to me when it says, “I am My Beloved’s, and He is mine,” and “I am My Beloved’s, and His desire is for me.” My life stays really busy, and I have the privilege of spending most of my days telling others about My Beloved, but nothing compares to loving and being loved by My Beloved. I can’t say that was always true about me. Too many wasted years wanting to do something important for Him in the eyes of others so that I would feel important, and happy. I’ve learned over the years that the truth is, I am important because I am important to Him, and that the most important thing I can do, in the moment, is to love Him back. I’ll never do anything more significant than to simply adore Him, and to enjoy Him adoring me. Don’t get me wrong, I love to serve Him because it brings My Beloved pleasure, but I don’t have to be busy, or do sensational things to feel worth. He considers me worthy of His love, and being in His lovesick presence, loving Him back is enough for me. Sitting on this porch, I’ve never been so not alone.